Name: Gina Sewell
FB: Gina Barton Sewell
- The closest I felt to God in my life was….(finish the sentence)
There are so many moments, but I think the closest was in those last few months with my mom before she passed. I prayed for strength to be what she needed and not just the hurt daughter who wants her mom back, and He gave me that strength. I would pray with her and read the bible to her, even though she had no clue who I was. My church even started having a Sunday night service there at the nursing home. In fact, it was that last service that she seemed to recognize me. For a few brief moments, I could see my mom in her eyes, tears rolled down her cheeks and she reached for me, which she never did. I said, “Mama, do you know me?” and she reached her arms out. We had a long hug, but when I looked in her face again, mom was gone. She began her journey that night and passed a few days later. I was with her. I was with both of my parents when they passed and as painful as that was, I’m so thankful I was
- If you could thank God for just one incident in your life what would it be and why?
For “lifting me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire and setting my feet upon a rock and giving me a firm place to stand.” (Psalm 40:2)
I had found myself living a life that I knew God never intended for me and for a while, I had forgotten how to escape it. Thankfully, I remembered. I went to God in prayer, surrendering it all and He saved me, giving me a brand new life in Him.
- If you could name a turning point in your life with your relationship with God what would it be and why?
That would be after many years of being angry with God because my mom, who was the closest I’ve ever seen to a truly Godly woman, was severely injured in a car accident. Her short term memory was destroyed and she never knew who I was again. She lived 15 years in that state of misery and I was so angry with God for much of that time. That’s when my life began to fall apart, but then God saved me and even helped me to completely set aside my pain for the sake of her care. He even answered my prayer of seeing her recognize (although vaguely and briefly) me just days before she passed. I had prayed so hard for that moment.
- What have you learned through your testimony?
How to forgive and how to live forgiven. How to trust in God and not try to do everything on my own. I learned that I can do nothing without Him and anything with Him.
- Did you face any mental barriers? If so, what were they and how did you overcome them?
Oh definitely. The anxiety and depression I went through during that time, as well as the toll that the anger and unforgiveness took on me over the years. God is how I overcame that. He brought me through all of that pain.
- What specific bible verse helped you through?
- If there was one thing you would tell yourself 10 years ago what would it be?
Let go of the anger and forgive.
- Is there anything else you would like to share?
Yes. After mom went to the nursing home because I could no longer take care of her alone and I had no help, all the feelings of anger, hurt, guilt caused me to follow my then husband into a very dark world. A world I knew I never belonged in and really thought I would never get out of, but I did. This year will be 10 years clean and born again. Praise God.