Name: Jasmine Ryans
- The closest I felt to God in my life was….(finish the sentence)
The closest I felt to God in my life was in 2019, when I felt I had lost what seemed to be like everything in my life that could possibly lose. Between January and December, my business was at a stand still, I lost relationships and family, my house, my job, my money, and my mind. It seemed like everything that could go wrong, went wrong. For a moment I stepped away from going to church and engaging like I was before everything collapsed. I wasn’t attending the building, but God still was working on me in “the wilderness” at home. I felt like I couldn’t talk to anyone so I finally decided to sit down with God and get real with Him. I was real about how I felt and I would be led to a scripture that was always fitting for what I was going through at that time. I really started to “see” God and who He is and was, especially in my life and the roles He planned in every situation that transpired during my “Job year”. Despite every trial, there was a triumph over the horizon. During the same year, I was interviewed several times for my business, Soul(tre), a faith-based health and beauty manufacturing company. My products were placed in Augusta & Co. in Augusta, GA, which was my company’s first retail space, the day after my two year anniversary. God showed His hand in my life countless of times because there wasn’t a day that went by that I didn’t feel like just giving it all up. I felt like it was important and wasn’t worth it, but God said otherwise.
- If you could thank God for just one incident in your life what would it be and why?
If I could thank God for just one incident in your life, despite how it came about, was the moment I found out I was pregnant with my daughter. That one moment change my life for the better because she was my motivation and inspiration to fight for life again. To believe in God again because of his grace He was continually extending to me in the most unorthodox ways to say the least.
- If you could name a turning point in your life with your relationship with God what would it be and why?
A turning point in my life with my relationship with God would definitely have to be this week for sure. With some much taking place in the world and being forced to really sit down and have ample opportunities to reflect on and be mindful of my today and how God is working in my today. Hearing from Him, allowing Him to speak to me and reveal Himself and His Word in a new and deeper way for me. I get to experience God on a different level without consuming my mind with what’s going on. My faith is growing stronger and I have hope again. It’s truly an indescribable, yet fulfilling, feeling that I want to continue and I know it will only continue if I continue to follow God, His Word and His plan. He has proven that his yoke is truly light.
- What have you learned through your testimony?
The one thing I have learned, which is so simple but so profound, is the only reason I got through it is because I keep going. No matter how many times I was so close to quitting, the Holy Spirit would pull me off the edge. I learned that I have to continue to walk by faith because what it looks like isn’t always what it seems and I can’t allow my current situations to overrule the promises of God. As it says in 2 Chronicles 15:7:”But as for you, be strong and do not give up, for your work will be rewarded.”
- Did you face any mental barriers? If so, what were they and how did you overcome them?
I faced many mental barriers. I allowed past events, shame and regret to consume my thoughts. I became a prisoner to self-doubt and self sabotage. I continually fed myself lies about who I was and what I couldn’t do because I felt I was qualified or simply wasn’t enough: I wasn’t smart enough, informed enough, valuable enough, important enough, educated enough and so on. But, during those downward spiral moments, there would always be a single though of what God had already down in my life that cancelled every lie I was telling myself in the moment and I would get back to what I needed to do.
- What specific bible verse helped you through?
Some scriptures that have helped me through that I will continue to keep close to me are Jeremiah 29:11- For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Joshua 1:9- Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discourage, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”
Mark 10:27- Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God.”
- If there was one thing you would tell yourself 10 years ago what would it be?
If there was one thing I could tell myself 10 years ago would be I am enough. There are a number of in the world that appreciate you just the way I am. I don’t have to pretend or act, just be me. I am not obligated to prove myself to anyone. I was created to please God, not man.