Name: Meeka Houston
FB: Meeka-Nicole Houston
- The closest I felt to God in my life was….(finish the sentence)
during my pregnancy. For so long I was told I would never have children. But God. I carried twins full term. Although the road was bumpy we made it to the end.
- If you could thank God for just one incident in your life what would it be and why?
One thing I can truly thank God for is the night i didnt die as a child. My father who was very abusive tried to kill me with a gun and he pulled the trigger but the gun didnt go off. At the time I was very young so it wasnt a big impact to me at the time but I could not imagine in the midst of all my mother was dealing with to also have to deal with the death of her child. But then again with the climate of the situation maybe she would have welcomed death for me to remove from the situation.
- If you could name a turning point in your life with your relationship with God what would it be and why?
December 15 2016. This was the day I decided for myself that this life was no longer worth living. I dealt with an abusive father. I was molested as a child. Sexually assaulted in college. I have determined life would get no better. My living situation at the time was tense and beyond stressful and I was determined that would be my last day on earth. So pills and alcohol were to be my end. A phone call in the midst of it revealed to the other person what was going on and the ambulance came and took me to the hospital. my heart stopped twice and I was in the hospital for 5 days. Every doctor I spoke to told me there is no reason I should be alive or still fully functional. This was the moment I had to tell myself maybe there is more in store for me.
- What have you learned through your testimony?
I have learned the true meaning of Romans 8:28. All things work together for the good of those who love him and are called according to his purpose. I had to convince myself that this was all part of a plan and that my pain was just there to help my better fulfill my purpose
- Did you face any mental barriers? If so, what were they and how did you overcome them?
I still face them. Clinically I have dealt with anxiety and PTSD. The mental damage done from childhood abuse can last a lifetime. So it is a constant battle of prayer and fasting. I have to remind myself daily that the past shaped me but it cant shake me.
- What specific bible verse helped you through?
Jeremiah 29:11-13 King James Version (KJV)
11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
12 Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you.
13 And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart.
- If there was one thing you would tell yourself 10 years ago what would it be?
Just keep pushing and praying. Be patient.
- Is there anything else you would like to share?
I truly believe that my twins are my reward in life. I have never been able to love anyone as deeply as I do them. I have been able to connect with others. Where I could not allow people into my space watching others love my children has allowed me to open myself up to different people. If not for my children I would not have gone back to church. I would not have stepped back into life.